a weekend out and about.

its monday again. i have a short break between school and evening college and even though i only get to be home for like 40 min its still worth it.

2h on public transport today. its hard not to embrace the apathy that spreads through the bus/train when the doors close.

neither Facebook or instagram is working on my phone now. (freddys old phone). and you realize firstly that you don't really need it and secondly how much time you all of a sudden have on your hand. okay maybe not that much, but definitely a few minutes here and there. Add it up and i have now gained 40min of extra time today. what to do with it?

this weekend was great. early sat morning me and freddy got on the train to gothenburg. almost 4h later we got off and were completely bombarded by the rain and the wind. in the short walk from central station to the shopping centre i was soaked for the rest of the day.

i quickly came to the conclusion that people walk a lot slower here than in stockholm. they also keep their head up more and are not always walking alone.

we hung around in the city from 11.30 til 19.00. stores, food, stores, walking, coffee, stores, coffee, walking, coffee....you know. a day off with your husband.

we found da Matteo, the place that roasts and supplies the coffee beans to our favorite cafés in stockholm. it was a really cool place and then we went to all the vintage stores around it. i scored some amazing brown leather shoes.

eventually the time came around and we headed to sticky fingers, the place where Kadawatha was playing that night. i was the lighting operator so i checked out the gear. since it wasn't that much to work with i just helped out for a bit and then went for some more coffee.

i met elin milton, the wife to one of the guitarists in the band. one of the most amazing women I've known. we've been exchanging letters since summer and it was great to finally see each other again!

the gig went great. ill post a video they uploaded recently with footage from a festival-gig this summer.

sunday was mine and freddy's 1 yr anniversary. its crazy its already been one year. and its weird that there's still no snow when there was so much last year.

frida's (brothers fiancé) had her bachelorette party this sunday and i was so glad i was able to be there. we had a nice time in a jacuzzi with food and snacks. unfortunately i had to cut out early to catch the train back to stockholm.

gotta go to evening college now. haven't been in a while now! Had the surgery three weeks ago, then i was resting from that two weeks ago and last week me and the sound guy were setting up and were wondering why no one came. haha, turned out it was cancelled.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dJ_bxoh3-EQ

the smell is all it takes

friday night. fredagsmys.me and freddy just finished watching the movie social network (about Facebook). haha, the blog just autocorrected me to spell
Facebook with capital F. thats how widespread it is.

freddy has now proceeded to cook us dinner. and it's the best

smell in the whole world. he is making greek beefs with potatoes and greek yoghurt. amazing.

i would take his homemade food over any restaurant.

a pretty good day today. its the middle of november and there is still no snow. i really like this icing kind of weather without the trouble that snow brings. but once it lands it'll still put a smile on my face.

tomorrow is our day off. i love

saturdays. i found some great secondhand stores on södermalm with sara yesterday and i can't wait to take freddy there. they had such cool furniture.

our house feels so much more like home since we got the new furniture.

today (during the most boring class about swedish folk music) i was browsing through what felt like a hundred websites trying to find the perfect vinyl player. i think I've found it. at first i was looking at crosley's selection, which is definitely alright. but they felt a bit too "i have a vintage vinyl player" and when i saw that they actually sell it (for a ridiculous amount of $) it confirmed my thought. so now I've looked into steepltone, who have a bit more of a new vintage feel to it. ill put both the crossly and the steeple tone up for you to decide:

i can hear the pan sizzling now and I'm a bit too excited about the food to stay put here.

the hospital, part 1

I'm sitting at huddinge hospital in the cafeteria. have just been doing some blood tests, EKG and talked to a doctor about my surgery. they were all very great in every way! i got a little drawing of my heart and some arrows pointing to what's wrong. i have an extra electrical signal that causes my heart to beat faster so they are going to go in and burn it.

its too bad that no talented chefs feel a calling to go into the hospital food business. as well as baristas. maybe one day.... they would seriously make the hospital stays 50% better. id forgotten that coffee could taste this bad.

my next thing is not until another 3 hours, so I'm gonna sit here in the cafeteria and play Theme Hospital. my favorite game from when i was a kid. its seriously so much fun. i bet its even more fun if you're sitting in a hospital while playing it. we'll see...

here's a link if you wanna download it to your mac: (its a PC game, so you'll need to download Boxer first to play it)

http://www.doobybrain.com/2009/11/22/theme-hospital-for-the-mac-using-boxer/

tågresa med i-landsproblem

sitter på tåget hem till lidköping.

det ska bli så skönt att vara hemma i några dagar. stockholm kan nog aldrig riktigt kännas hemma. det är så många andras hem på något sätt.

sen jag flyttade har jag upptäckt en ny (eller snarare uppdaterad och förstärkt) form av ilska. det är ilskan man känner när tunnelbanedörrarna går igen precis framför en. eller när man ser bussen åka förbi. som jag sa, visst har man känt den känslan förut. men av någon anledning så har den gått till nya dimensioner nu. plus att den också framkallas nästan varje dag.

man tror att man har bråttom på något sätt. men egentligen har man ju väldigt sällan så bråttom så att det bli världens grej. nästa tunnelbana kommer ju oftast inom 4 min.

ändå blir man lika arg varje gång. och nästan varje gång så blir jag lika förvånad över mig själv. sluta bli så arg.

idag konfronterades jag av två andra löjliga i-lands problem.

* den första är att man alltid måste torka av iPhone displayen när man har pratat för att det kommer smink på den. (inte har jag väl ens så mkt smink?)

* den andra var när jag klev på tåget och insåg, till min förtret, att det inte fanns något eluttag. hur var det tänkt att jag skulle kunna kolla på film på datorn då? som om det var deras problem att lösa... men återigen blev jag frustrerad. sen kollade jag batteriet på datorn. nåja, 50%. då kan jag se ett avsnitt av greys anatomy....

* åh nej! jag hade glömt dvd skivorna. ok. då får jag väl streama det då...

* varför är mitt mobila bredband långsamt? jag måste VÄNTA 1 min innan jag kan börja kolla.

kanske är det bara jag som är psycho och lever i en knäpp värld?

meeen...... kan ni inte känna igen er iaf lite?

det är sjukt att dessa knäpp problem får påverka vår vardag.

vad GJORDE man förr i tiden när man åkte häst och vagn i dagar i streck?

sunday

goals : bored

there are so many things you want in life.

big things like a happy family. small things like a nice dinner.

we put up goals for ourselves. and look forward to the day when this goal will be fulfilled or that goal will expand into a bigger goal.

sooner or later we either achieve the goal or realize that we'll never achieve it (which will hopefully be due to the fact that it wasn't a great goal to begin with).

and while you're in the process of reaching for your goal you never really stop to think what you'll do once you get there. hopefully the goal will have gotten you a step closer to the biggest goal in life or at least made the way there more fun or more comfortable.

and then you start all over again. because we don't like living without goals. cause whats the point if we don't have a goal? the point is the goal, right?

2 yr ago:

one goal was to finish college. me and freddy had been dating for about two months. so another goal was to pursue our relationship and figure out the next step. i was pumped about church and was setting up goals in how i could build ministry (wherever that ministry would be).

1 yr ago:

my goals from the previous year were reached. I had graduated college, gotten engaged and was heavily involved in building the youth ministry in my church back home.

my goals were 1. to get married 2. to get into music school 3. to find somewhere to live in sthlm 4. for freddy to learn swedish and find a job

today:

all the goals from the previous year are reached.

we are married. we live in sthlm. I'm in music school. freddy knows swedish and has a full-time job.

so what now?

i realize that this much stuff don't normally happen within such a short time. So maybe the goal process could slow down a bit? or stretch out and become more longterm goals?

but to be honest i feel kind of bored. immensely thankful and grateful. but a bit bored.

coffe hijacked

life is interesting. that's what keeps it interesting.

for some reason i always wake up at 4 am when i have nightmares. 4.00am, every time.

so as i was being chased by the leader of a gang high up on some electrical wires in central stockholm it came as no surprise when i startled awake and looked at my phone. 4 am on the dot.

when staring at the feeling for a few minutes i tried to shrug off the scary feelings awaken by my dream. i tried to imagine how stupid all of this would feel in a few hours in broad daylight. but it never works. you still feel scared to fall back asleep. since you always wake up just as something was gonna happen (in my case just as the leader was closing in on me) your scared of the dream jumping right back in as soon as you fall asleep.

distraction usually works, so i put on some gilmore girls. the flickering from the tv woke up my not-so-eager-for-it-to-be-morning husband.

after two episodes i fell back asleep for an hour before the nice tone of fleet foxes let me know it was time for freddy to get up for work.

I've been off today, doing laundry and other chores including making lunch and bringing it to freddy. after eating gnocchi's by the water we decided to make a short stop at our favorite café Kura. we met a securitas car as we were pulling up and freddy asked me if they issue parking tickets. i said NO.

after ordering coffee the car comes around again. turns out they do. freddy got out in time and moved the car, i ran out with a take-away cup and off he went to finish his route.

and here i am, still at the café with a picture of michael jackson's dead body in front of me (in the newspaper).

so what to make out of the rest of this day?