captivating emotions

its so scary how things can captivate you.
a place, a song, a written sentence, a scent.
it can knock you out of control in a way that almost feels supernatural.
feelings can just rise and you didnt even have time to think about whether you wanted feelings to rise or not. it is as if your emotions start to control you.
and that is a scary thought.
because who are your emotions?
if you are you, and you feel like you are not in control of yourself, then what is?
an emotion is not a person with an intellectual brain.. so how does it manage to control you?
is it possible to be in control of your emotions? if you are then your emotions cant really be real, they would be fake, cause they would just be whatever you are telling yourself to feel.
i find this very interesting.
i think its easy to listen to your emotions too much. because we dont want to feel fake. and to diregard emotions makes us feel fake, doesnt it?
but, all our emotions are not really good, justified or true.
sometimes we feel things one minute and not the next.
say that i feel like running one moment. and then five minutes later i dont feel like it anymore. does that mean that the first feeling was wrong and that i shouldnt have listened to it?
im assuming this is where our judgement comes into the picture. and our analytical thinking.
because if i wouldve used my judgement and analytical thinking i wouldve ignored the first feeling to run. i wouldve thought "it will pass".
and all throughout the day we actually do diregard emotions and feelings. because sometimes it is healthy for us to do so.
if you let yourself feel too much and listen too much to your emotions you will seem weird and inconsistent. at least i would.
so we choose.
we choose which feelings to grab hold of and build on.