decisions

söndag.
sometimes the aftermatch can be more difficult than the match because that's when you are left to deal with things yourself.
the match decides the aftermatch. but the aftermatch decides the ending. or at least how to best proceed.
it is the same with decisions.
you can make a decision pretty easily. but the hard part is to stick with the decision.
i used to think that the hard part was to make a decision. but l have come to realize that its the sticking to it part that is the hard part.
some decisions you make once, but then in order to stick with them you have to make new decisions everyday.
i choose once to give my life to christ. but i choose everyday to follow him and keep on walking. otherwise i would be standing still.
like accepting things. i choose once to want to accept it. but still everyday i have to make decisions in order to keep accepting it.
of course there are a few decisions you make once with the small decisions in mind. like marriage. you say I do once and that time you mean I do for all the coming days as well. so you include all the coming decisions into one decisions.
but with most things in life its not like that. you have to keep on choosing. and that is how you everyday choose who you want to be. you dont just make a few decisions. who you are is in your everyday decision.
making big decisions like i wanna be more humble and i want to be more loving and see people is fairly easy and inspiring to make decisions like that, but its in your everyday that you can actually see if those decisions are being followed through.