torsdag.
wow. today i have struggled and fought with a feeling i have never really fully experienced before.
what would i do if freddy was gone? aka: what would you do if your someone was gone?
If you got a phonecall all of a sudden and the person in question no longer exist.
just battling with the idea was more than i could handle.
but at the same time i realized that i cant just ignore this feeling and this question. it is something that i need to work with and figure out.
we take life and love for granted. we can say until we are blue in the face that we dont. but we do.
what if we would treat every conversation as the last?
im not saying we should, im just toying with the idea.
everytime today (and there were many times) that i thought of loosing him i got teary eyed and sunk myself deep into the thought only to not be able to cope with it and try to come up for air again and try to forget the whole thing.
but what if it would happen? what would i do?
and i dont mean as in the next year, cause its pretty obvious you would need time to bounce back. but how would it change my life and what i live for?
obviously i can never fully know until that was to happen. but its not a bad idea to still figure out what i would do. because that tells me what i put my trust in and build my life upon.
how would my faith change? and everything else?
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