exciting times.

Dear [this is where you out your name in],

inspiration has not come easy these days.
moments of purifying sun colouring the brilliant leaves on the ground has occasionally tickled the gene from which my inspiration flows.
but only momentarily.
however i refuse to embrace this dullness.
therfore i will break free.

these are exciting times, for numerous reasons.
1. i will be joined in marriage with fred orville roberts IV withing only 7 weeks.
2. we are moving to sthlm.
3. church is amazing.
4. i have amazing global friends.
5. i came in second place last night at our family bowling night.

1:
the invitations are out.
if interested: www.freddyandrebecka.gettingmarried.se
this wedding will in every way take you on a journey of mine and freddy's lives.
the dress is bought. the food is decided. the decorations is midway through being collected and include glass cokebottles and LP records.
and first and foremost i will get to spend the rest of my life with this hilarious man of God.

2:
oh stockholm.
you smile upon me with much delight containing almost as many great coffee shops and definitely better clothing stores.
but most of all: church.
we are excited to again reconnect with our hillsong family across the world by calling hillsong home.

3:
not to forget church here in my hometown.
i thank God as i look at all the amazing things i get to be a part of here.
in three weeks time we'll be building a rail jam snow park on the townsquare, hiring a DJ and build an icebar where we'll be serving glorious hot chocolate. all in favour of the annual Kaj Rail Jam. five stars to matilda pilfalk who is key person in this along with all other volunteers.
i've been graced with the honor of lighting up this whole event. with lights.

4:
after celebrating my 22nd birthday on oct 14th i reconnected with some of my global friends.
mel, bek and jana. you have no idea how much you berich my life.
i've also over the last few weeks gotten my beloved sara back home.

5:
not really that much to say. i kicked freddy's and andreas' butts last night.
dad won. no surprise there.

now i must go and meet up my fiancé to taste some wedding cakes for the big day. i think we'll go with princesscake.

daycare?

söndag.
this week i have been working at a daycare for elementary school kids.
ive started to wonder about our society today.
how is it that people drop their kids off at 6.30 in the morning and pick them up at 5 in the afternoon?
paying for others to take care of your own kids. day after day.
working 40h/week so that you can buy everything you think you need, sending your kids to daycare in order to do so and then look forward to the five weeks of the summer when you can "actually" hang out with them and go on a vaccation.
i do realize that this is an extreme side of things. many people need daycare sometimes or for a particular season of their life. and it's not all bad.
but when it becomes the majority of where the kids spend their time (except for sleeping) then i think we should reconsider out priorities.
do we need to work 40h/week? really?
in order to have enough for clothes, food and a place to sleep?
or do we need to work 40h/week so that we can buy STUFF.
work gets the best and when we get home we are just tired.
again, it's not like this for everyone. but for a lot of people.
i guess its easy to think and reflect on this when im not in the situation myself.
but i dont want to work more than i need to. or pay for someone else to take care of my kids for the majority of the day.
maybe thats all i needed to say?

the weight of words

do we try to make ourselves bigger with our talk?
sometimes i feel like evry other word in a sentence is an adjective describing how big, bad, wonderful, horrible or fun something is. i love adjectives, but they should be the spice in a conversation, not the main point.
we try to make everything sound cool. we over exaggerate. or under exaggerate. anything for our benefit.
we promise, we swear and assure each other about stuff. and it's great. but what happened to just yes and no. i will or i won't.
what if you would use your words in a way so that when you use the words "Yes it was great" it carries the weight that great is supposed to carry and we wouldn't need ten other adjectives to prove the point. we wouldn't need to prove anything. we would just speak and mean what we say.
like i said, i love adjectives and by all means we should keep using them and keep inventing new ones. but we should mean what we say. and our words could carry more weight.
don't you have those people around you that just over exaggerates all the time? everything their doing is always awesome? but what does awesome mean to them? and what does awesome mean to you? you usually measure words on the same scale as those around you that you hang out with. and when you put another group of friends on the scale it says something completely different. maybe that's why there are so many missunderstandings in life? we speak the same language, but can the weight of the words be so different that the language is not the same anymore?

"It was said to the people long ago: "Do not break your oath but fulfill to the Lord the vows you have made:" But I tell you, do not swear an oath at all..... All you need to say is simply yes or no, anything beyond this comes from the evil one." - Matt 5:33-34, 37

the circles

Do you ever feel scattered? Wanting one thing but feeling differently? Feeling something that does not fit into your plan?
Our will/convictions, our emotions and our vision is one big mess in relation to each other sometimes.
I think of it as three different circles floating around.
One circle is everything that you are convicted about. Politics, faith or opinions.
Another circle represents all your emotions. This is (hopefully/normally) the one that changes and floats around the most.
The third one is your future. What you want in life and how you intend to get there. Your dreams and desires.
The three have different shades but the same colour, different moods but the same personality.
The circles always touch each other in at least one area. And this is where you are, the core you. The spot in the middle when they all aline and come together makes you into one person, you.
The closer these three circles are to each other the less scattered you'll feel. If they are so close together that they almost look like one circle you feel peace and harmony. You feel like you are in control. You know what you want, why you want it and your feeligns support and testify it.
But you can't ever lock the circles in one position when you feel like it's under control.
They are constantly flowing in the same speed that your life is passing by.
Your mood changes, your oppinions change and your plans change. And they are supposed too, because we are meant to be growing.
But the better you get at lining them up, the more at peace you will be.
The more room you get for the core you to relax and you don't feel pulled apart in different directions by the very base.
No wonder we have identidy crisis sometimes. Those are the times when the circles are pulling in different directions and there is only enough room for the core you in the middle to try and hold the three circles together.
Some people pick only one circle and tries to aline the other two to it. Most people nowdays pick their emotional circle. As soon as they feel a certain way their convistions and their future plans changes and tries to keep up. But why would you pick the circle that changes the most then?
I don't think we should choose one at all, however I believe we need to have one in majority over the other two. I believe the one in majority should be our convictions.
But like I said, we shouldn't pick unless we must. We should stay in the middle and try to listen to and bring them all together. Three combined into one is far better.

what is christianity?

söndag.
what is christianity?
i used to think it was easy to do but hard to explain.
but ive realized more and more that its the hardest thing to do but the easiest thing to explain.
i found a bible verse that just nailed it for me today.

The Message Bible says: (micah 6:8)
"It's quite simple: Do what is fair and just to your neighbor,
be compassionate and loyal in your love,
And don't take yourself too seriously—
take God seriously. "

other translations of the last sentence says "walk humbly with your God" or "faithful stand and hold fast to your God".

in my words:
1. follow your concience/the Holy Spirit/convictions in your everyday decisions/situations.
2. be generous/compassionate and not picky with your love.
3. never compromise God for anything but always put him first in love and life.
however I would put them in reverse order. start with number three, Jesus is what enables us to do this. and the other two will follow.

i believe that's it.
sometimes we make things complicated.
let the complicated things come when we are in control of the basics. cause it's not until then we are able to handle them.

decisions

söndag.
sometimes the aftermatch can be more difficult than the match because that's when you are left to deal with things yourself.
the match decides the aftermatch. but the aftermatch decides the ending. or at least how to best proceed.
it is the same with decisions.
you can make a decision pretty easily. but the hard part is to stick with the decision.
i used to think that the hard part was to make a decision. but l have come to realize that its the sticking to it part that is the hard part.
some decisions you make once, but then in order to stick with them you have to make new decisions everyday.
i choose once to give my life to christ. but i choose everyday to follow him and keep on walking. otherwise i would be standing still.
like accepting things. i choose once to want to accept it. but still everyday i have to make decisions in order to keep accepting it.
of course there are a few decisions you make once with the small decisions in mind. like marriage. you say I do once and that time you mean I do for all the coming days as well. so you include all the coming decisions into one decisions.
but with most things in life its not like that. you have to keep on choosing. and that is how you everyday choose who you want to be. you dont just make a few decisions. who you are is in your everyday decision.
making big decisions like i wanna be more humble and i want to be more loving and see people is fairly easy and inspiring to make decisions like that, but its in your everyday that you can actually see if those decisions are being followed through.

midsummer

fredag.
midsummer. a swedish holiday marking the middle of the summer (which its not by the way) celebrated to make the ground more fertile (by dancing around an upside down penis) and yet another excuse for swedes to get drunk and eat raw fish.
yep that pretty much sums it up.
it was fun though.
pictures will display the joy in which we were able to partake in as the beautiful sun warmed our fair scandinavian skin and the dust was swirling around our feet on the dirtroads leading up to the big white castle which was founded in the 1600's.
amazing to talk to mel, sara and freddy this morning. (all at seperate times).
just like always a part of me came to life again.
ive been looking at schools today and i found a really great one with stageproduction and lighting/sound design. 3yrs in malmö.

if he was gone

torsdag.
wow. today i have struggled and fought with a feeling i have never really fully experienced before.
what would i do if freddy was gone? aka: what would you do if your someone was gone?
If you got a phonecall all of a sudden and the person in question no longer exist.
just battling with the idea was more than i could handle.
but at the same time i realized that i cant just ignore this feeling and this question. it is something that i need to work with and figure out.
we take life and love for granted. we can say until we are blue in the face that we dont. but we do.
what if we would treat every conversation as the last?
im not saying we should, im just toying with the idea.
everytime today (and there were many times) that i thought of loosing him i got teary eyed and sunk myself deep into the thought only to not be able to cope with it and try to come up for air again and try to forget the whole thing.
but what if it would happen? what would i do?
and i dont mean as in the next year, cause its pretty obvious you would need time to bounce back. but how would it change my life and what i live for?
obviously i can never fully know until that was to happen. but its not a bad idea to still figure out what i would do. because that tells me what i put my trust in and build my life upon.
how would my faith change? and everything else?

a different kind of life

tisdag.
what is worth living for?
think your day through.
did you put any time towards any of those things?

pier preassure

söndag.
today has been a very good day.
around noon we (my little bro, my mom and evelina) left and followed kadawatha to got to gothenburg.
after a bit of a drive-around (gothenburg is the worst city in the world when it comes to traffic) we managed to get to the right place and got our passes and dropped of gear and stuff.
me and my brother were crew members with the band. i was doing lights and little bro took pictures/filmed.
amazing catering. not so amazing toilets. bajemaja.
pier preassure is a one-day-festival. the headliners this year was paramore, 30 seconds to mars and him.
i went over to have a look at the lighting desk after loading out all the gear.
hm, never seen anything like it before. i talked to the guy and we decided that i would operate one half of the board (all blinders and parcans) and that he would do the movers. we did some programming during soundcheck, i told him colours and stuff. turned out really great. i have missed doing lights so much.
when we went to get dinner with the band we met the drummer and one of the guitarists in paramore. they know kadawatha since kadawatha is opening for them on their us tour that beginns in a month. so we got paramore backstage passes and got to stand on the stage to the side for the concert. fun!
paramore surprised me. ive tried to listen to them a few times but its never really stuck with me. but after seeing them live it will feel different. they had so much energy. positive energy and a good feeling about them. great live too!
just got home and im ready for bed.
haha, my english is slipping away a bit.it doesnt really have a flow anymore.
freddy, get here quickly!
love beck

ligthing

lördag.
Oh how i miss doing lights.
my creative nerve felt too overflowing when i went there for some lighting inspiration yesterday.
im glad i can share this with jana. she understands competely how i feel.
how do you go from like five services a week to none? to not even having a lighting desk.
anyway. this sunday i will have a creative outlet. pier preassure with kadawatha.
it will be glorious to once again enter the world of gobos and colour.
the world where colours make sense and the movements expresses the course of the music.
where timing and feeling is everything and you project the notes in a way that makes people not just hear but also feel the music.
even words like dmx, patching and dimrack makes the creative nerve spill over a little bit.
i could write about this for a very long time but i doubt it will fall many people's interest.
the week had been great.
on tuesday i changed diapers for the first time at kindergarten.
on wednesday my dad turned 44 and i won the minigolf tournament.
on thursday the girls went out for breakfast at café 3b. beats sonoma with a good bit. however single-o's poached eggs and lattes are still at the top.
café 3b was great though, and so much fun with the girls.
i used to eat breakfast out all the time in sydney. either that or skip.
nothing like a morning off to head down crown, eat at 485 and flip through the papers and books at paper 2. sit down and write about life and love.
anyway, today is a beautiful summer day in sweden. and i will make the most out of it.
love beck

united and graduation

fredag.
the last few days have blurred together into one long day.
my uncle picked me up thurs morning at the airport in sthlm and i got a few hours at their house before heading towards sthlm city.
i got to cirkus around 2.30pm just as the band (hillsong united) was soundchecking.
met up with ian and some people for a bit. great to see some sydney faces again!
then i met up with michaela and later i met up with linn. then i headed back to cirkus for the concert at 7pm.
i sat with elsa. great to see her again.
the concert was great. not as great as it is in sydney but definitely a taste.
they played mostly old songs. like look to you, all i need is you, hosanna, mighty to save etc.
after the concert we got into the car and started the 4h ride back home.
i arrived in lidköping 3am friday morning and finally got to go to bed for the first time since the few hours tues night before i left.
i got woken up by a worried freddy. i had forgotten to call him to let him know i had gotten home alright.
good thing i got woken up though cause i could wake my graduating little brother up, who had slept through his alarm.
i gave him a ride to the bus station and then got a few hours more sleep.
and this is where today starts.
we went to my brothers school around noon to watch them run out. and then a whole series of hundred year old traditions started.
we went home to prepare the graduation party.
i would estimate the numbers of guests to about 120 throughout the afternoon/night.
my brother has now gone back to his highschool town for a graduation party with all the graduates in his year.
i cant believe its been three years since i graduated.
im now so tired. the nights between mon-tue is the last time i got more than 5h of sleep in a row.
it is so good to be home. so good.
i love home.

sthlm

torsdag.
back in stockholm. sitting in my aunt and uncles kitchen. i dont know how to thank them enough for their hospitality. amazing people.
the flight was long. i left freddys house at 2.30am on wednesday morning. and i landed at 7.30am thursday morning. yum.
the office season 1 has been entertaining me on the layovers. clockpure, as a sweed would say.
i think flying is like coffee, acquired taste. of course its never something you look forward too but it gets easier. and you learn how to do it and how to make the time into something useful.
i used to hate it. if you take away the planefood and the worrying its actually quite alright.
im gonna land here for a few hours and then head to circus where united is playing tonight.
meeting up with ian before. lighting operator.
i miss freddy.
but im glad to be on scandinavian ground. i was choking on the humidity over there.
now we are just waiting for his visa to go through.
the last few days have been great in so many different ways.
love beck

panama city

söndag.
woke up with stupid allergies, so we didnt go to church. wanted to check it out but oh well.
got in the convertible once i started feeling better and headed towards panama city, florida.
its about 1,5h drive.
we stopped by at a flee market. you could get brass knuckles and knifes for like $5. and the kid behind the counter was like 9 years old.
ive only been here for a few days and i already miss sweden. as a country that is. i love seeing freddy and everything. but having been home for a while i realize how amazing sweden is.
and i miss the wonderful scandinavian air.
we got to panama city beach round 1pm. the water was oil free (so far) and pretty warm. we laid out in the sun for a while and then went for a walk on the beach.
it was refreshing and relaxing.
then we drove back and stopped at hollys house in dothan and i got to see my favourite six year old ella.
she is so beautiful and i love listening to her.
we went for dinner at outback steakhouse and she turns to me during dinner and says in her cute country accent:
now remember that the key to marriage is to know what house you wanna live in.
there is a lot to learn from that girl.
after dinner we drove home to echo and the farm.
now im gonna go to bed.
love beck

alabama

lördag.
what a glorious day.
humidity and crickets in the air.
i woke up at 6.30 and could not sleep any longer. thats what you get after a 20h flight (with all the layovers).
so i went down to wake freddy up, selfish as i am.
we made fruitsalad and sat on the porch looking out over the land. even though it was so early i was sitting comfortably in just shorts and a t-shirt.
we drove in to dothan to a little market and saw holly and her boyrfriend and freddys mom kelly.
bought some corn on a cob. turned out later that they were disgusting with caterpillars all over them. yuck.
so we grilled some steak and lay in the pool for a while.
then i fell asleep and has been really tired ever since. i usually dont have a lot of problems with jetlag and switching timezones. but this time i did.
in the evening freddy took me out.
we got blankets and pillows in the back of the red jeep and drove to a drive-in movie theatre.
on the way we picked up some taco bell.
we parked backwards and watched the movie through the back trunk.
the movie was called killler. a new movie with ashton kutcher and izzie from greys anatomy.
i wish i could tell you if it was good or bad. but i fell asleep. i think i wouldve liked the movie.
now im getting ready for bed.
so good to be back here in the deep south.
love beck

saleby

prästkrage


saleby church, seen from the schoolyard.

my alltime favourite cake, princess cake

cute little ducklings.

tisdag.
there was no room for feeling blue, mellow or sad this morning.
the beautiful spring sunshine shone its warm, beautiful and piercing rays into every courner of my heart as i drove the 20 minutes to the school.
today i was working in a class with 3-4 graders at the "farmer school" (all the farmer kids go there).
i liked it so much more than any city school. they were attentive and obedient yet still full of life and personality.
the drive there was breathtaking. green and yellow fields, blazing sun and a river full of life.
the afternoon was spent at the "youthcouncil". we have a council at church concerning the youth department. i was talking about the summer plans and i got a budget to buy lighting equipment.
today was one of those days when my feelings and thoughts didnt stand a chance against the weather. i couldnt help but get inspired and filled with joy.
life is good.
love beck

captivating emotions

its so scary how things can captivate you.
a place, a song, a written sentence, a scent.
it can knock you out of control in a way that almost feels supernatural.
feelings can just rise and you didnt even have time to think about whether you wanted feelings to rise or not. it is as if your emotions start to control you.
and that is a scary thought.
because who are your emotions?
if you are you, and you feel like you are not in control of yourself, then what is?
an emotion is not a person with an intellectual brain.. so how does it manage to control you?
is it possible to be in control of your emotions? if you are then your emotions cant really be real, they would be fake, cause they would just be whatever you are telling yourself to feel.
i find this very interesting.
i think its easy to listen to your emotions too much. because we dont want to feel fake. and to diregard emotions makes us feel fake, doesnt it?
but, all our emotions are not really good, justified or true.
sometimes we feel things one minute and not the next.
say that i feel like running one moment. and then five minutes later i dont feel like it anymore. does that mean that the first feeling was wrong and that i shouldnt have listened to it?
im assuming this is where our judgement comes into the picture. and our analytical thinking.
because if i wouldve used my judgement and analytical thinking i wouldve ignored the first feeling to run. i wouldve thought "it will pass".
and all throughout the day we actually do diregard emotions and feelings. because sometimes it is healthy for us to do so.
if you let yourself feel too much and listen too much to your emotions you will seem weird and inconsistent. at least i would.
so we choose.
we choose which feelings to grab hold of and build on.

kindergarden

måndag.
waking up to a phone call is a good thing. it means ive got work for the day.
today that meant the kidnergarden that i went to myself about 15 years ago.
but before i was off i managed to catch rebekah abreu and sara atterfelt on skype!
i miss them so much, it was like coming alive in a strange sort of way.
i really do miss sydney, in more ways than one.
after our skypecall i walked to the kindergarden.
the ultimate challenge was the lunchbreak.
one kid had a snot/butter mustache and talked about wetting the bed.
another kid was making "ghostmilk" by mixing milk and water.
another one was eating pure onion sauce with a fork.
and as soon as i stood up i noticed that someone must have spilled potatoes on the floor because it was now smeared into my black sock.
but hey, they kids were kind of cute.
the rest of the evening was spent planning the summer.
i wonder what delicious challenges tomorrow will bring.
love beck

fashion show

torsdag.
i woke up to the lovely robot tone from my iPhone.
art teacher at my old high school (junior).
the rain was pouring so i woke my brother up and he drove me.
interesting classes and students.
when i went to get my bike and go home i had a flat tire. and not just one. two.
so i walked home with my bike and listened to the viva la vida album. it's been a while. you know when an album comes out during an emotional time in your life and it gets stored into the album.. that's how i feel about that album.
when i got to the long allé of trees leading to my nieghbourhood i had to stop. it was so beautiful in the spring sun.
i was home for a bit and then got a longboard to go to the city and meet linda.
kind of didnt pick the best shoes, or outfit to go with the board. people were staring. leggings and leathershoes. i dont blame them. but i didnt have a bike.
i met up with linda at a restaurant/café. then we went to church to fix some stuff for the stage design for the conference in my church this weekend.
we did as much as we had time for and then left to be in time for the fashion show.
the fashion show was for a design/fabric school at my old high school (senior). haven't been there for so long. since my graduation i think. lots of memories.
i had a friend that was graduating from the fashion school and she showed her clothes.
when i got home i called freddy. we talked for a bit and then he had to go cause he was driving to tampa for his interview with the swedish embassy!
im praying all goes well..
love beck

skogshyddan

tisdag.
today was a journey in time.
i woke up and had breakfast with half the band before they went for rehearsal.
my brother on crutches.
then i went up in the attic. wow.
stuff everywhere!
old school stuff. old clothes. stuffed animals. a drumset. vhs tapes.
i got hold of the vhs tape i was looking for. Kalle Blomkvist.
then my grandpa ernst came to pick me up.
we talked and had fika for the rest of the afternoon.
i found old photoalbums from the 1800's and he didnt even know who was in the pictures.
he drove me home and then my friends came to pick me up.
klara, linda and sara.
klara and linda were in wetsuits and wanted to go in the water. freeezing.
but we went and i took some pictures.
we went to the place where i will be working as a youthpastor this summer.
its a big café with minigolf, a soccer field, a bechvolley spot, a beach and a great newly build auditorium. gorgeous.
ill even have my own office and ive started to look at lighting possibilities for the aud.
after they went into the water we got fika at the café. ice cream and coffee.
we sat for like an hour just hanging out.
then we went to get the VHS tape with and old astrid lindgren movie (author of pippi longstocking). Kalle Blomkvist. the soundtrack is amazing.
we picked up some McDonalds on the way, the only fastfood restaurant there is in my town.
had a great night.
talked to freddy when i got home. he got an interview with the swedish embassy! so excited. one step closser to him coming here.
love beck

a wedding in a castle

lördag.
since we have been renovating our kitchen for the past few days, breakfast got very interesting.
however it is looking perfectly splendid. or it will.
i started the day with a 30min drive to go see my dear friend ida. we went to high school together and she has now left the country side for stockholm. but this weekend she was back home.
we had a great time talking and looking at pictures from graduation.
i drove back home and picked up my younger brother.
another 30min drive later we found ourselves in front of a big white castle.
it had been there for hundereds of years and on this particular day we were attending a wedding at this beautiful historical spot.
it is located on an island in swedens biggest lake, north of my city.
it was a beautiful wedding and it was about time i got some kind of idea of what a swedish wedding looks like.
all the weddings here seemed to have happened while i was in sydney.
the evening was perfectly spent with my older brother.
we longboarded in the city and rented a movie.
on the way home i truly felt like i was at home for the first time since ive been back.
we were boarding home the same way that i used to bike to school everyday and when we went past the forest i caught the smell of fresh scandinavian spring forest.
after the movie i started to do some last minute editing for my promo video for the summer.
i am showing it at the service tomorrow.

lidköping

today we had a picnic in the city.
nice spring day, but dont let the sun fool you. it was still cold.
we also paid a visit to the museum and had som fika.
smalltown stuff.

swedish sunset

it's been quite a splendid day.
i met up with sara b for lunch at bakgår'n. i think i liked larssons skafferi better.
we had some nice chats and proceeded to "do the city". göra stan.
this consists of visiting all the big and important stores in our little town.
when we were done (about an hour) i met up with my mom and my younger brother.
we were gonna go shopping for clothes for him for graduation.
we went to hennings. and we got some top noch assistance.
i learned a lot.
my brother ended up getting a tiger of sweden suit.
tiger was founded in 1903 and the guys grandma was one of their first seamstresses.
the name comes from one of the founders who couldn't say "tyger" (means fabric in swedish) but instead said tiger. which would be tyger with a stockholm accent.
for you readers located in sydney you can actually get hold of some tiger of sweden clothes at somedays on bourke/fitzroy in surry hills.
i also learned that you are NEVER to button all the buttons on your suit jacket. you ALWAYS leave the bottom one open.
you should also never wear a bowtie that you dont tie yourself. its not classy and you miss out on being cool and loosen your bowtie whenever an opportunity is provided. just to show everyone that you tied it yourself.
as far as matching your date goes, just dont bother. if absolutely necessary you can wear a handkerchief in matching colour in your breast pocket.
on to other things..
i biked to my grandpas house and had yet another fika. exquisite.
when i got home i went for a walk with my camera in my neighbourhood just as the sun was setting.
when i got home i had evening fika with my dad.
hot chocolate, boiled eggs and corn dogs.
the cats got excited when i started feeding them from my corn.
i have just finished skyping with my amazing fiancè and im ready for bed.

afternoon sun

lördag.
its dark outside. lots of stars.
i just got home from a hangout with my friends out in the country in a big house.
such a nice porch going around the house and i got some great pictures as the sun was setting.
nights like these i am so happy to be back in sweden.
earlier today i was preparing for tomorrow. im preaching at one of the night services tomorrow.
very excited. but kind of nervous. i havent preached since last times i was home, two years ago.
freddy wanted to be on skype and listen. but i realized that he wouldnt understand anything of what i was saying since it would be in swedish. it was a weird feeling to realize that.
but soon enough...
yesterday freddy met two of my friends, charlotte and evelina on skype.